THE WAR WITHIN FOUR WALLS

I sit
in my room, 
With my eyes,
closed. 
The darkness
surrounds me,
And I start to float,
within four walls,
enclosed.

 

 

There’s a feeling
of water,
Filling inside
from all sides. 
There’s no escape,
Frightened,
by the currents
and tides.

 

My body,
suffocating,
to the flow. 
The depression
has decided
to finish me off.
But then
I survive,
to breathe,
To swim out
and cough.

 

My heart
is overwhelmed,
But the end
is near.
I see above
to witness
 the roof falling.
Anxiety has lit up,
in me,
an intense fear.

 

I drown back
into the water. 
Only to save myself,
one more time.
But alas,
it’s the depression,
I fight everything around,
with guilt of no crime.